Last Breath

Subject: Last Breath Tue Aug 04, 2009 12:42 pm

Last Breath
For the sinners…

Suddenly death overcame me
So unexpected so sudden so petrifying
Izra’il ripping out my soul so viciously
Hooking it out, his appearance paralysing with terror
Face as black; no, more intense than the darkness of nightmares
Images of death and fear overwhelming, dread that this is the end
No preparations made for the Resurrection; bankrupt in deeds
Filled, heavy, back burdened instead by sins of magnitude, vile, abhorred
The Angel of Death sent to take my soul; ending my worldly affairs
Torn out, weeping, tortured soul screams in unheard fear
Aware of its heedlessness, sinner’s punishments severe
Mountain tall sins shown before my screaming eyes
Heart-stopping madness consumes as the revolting deeds are unmasked
Drowning in atrocities even the hellfire’s despise
Death snatching so swiftly; by then far too late
Too late to realize that only hellfire may await
Hellfire of fire and flames, whose fuel was men and stones
Towering with rage and spitting venom of agony
Black, white, red of blood, screams of torture hissing, never-ending,
No memory of worldly pleasures from a glimpse of its terror
All too aware of its severity, yet ignored by ego’s craving desires
This is what has been promised the sinners, who are ungrateful,
Blind to His Signs, deaf to His Call, dumb; hearts sealed form His light...
Yet I’d known, believed long ago and left with full knowledge; truly warned form the start
Where did I go wrong? Satan deceived, evil, corrupted
Now I must pay the price
Roast in defeat, tortured continuously for eternity
Black, scorched, pain intense...
I’d been warned, yet ignored the deadly Promise...
Beware of the Hell-Fire...

I was lost in the darkness,
So deep and so alone,
So oblivious to all
Down endless pits I fall
Pain and fear binding so tight
Sheer terror blinds my sight.
Screaming coz my soul’s so black
Sins like angry wasps attack.
Dragging tearing down to hell
Screaming shouting help I yell
Crying sobbing all the way
Fearing the price I’d have to pay
Trapped in a nightmare all too real
Heart beats so fast such terror I feel
Never ending torment for unbelievers
I was trapped in the darkness,
So deep and so alone and so afraid.

My heart shrouded by a black veil
I scream but no one listens
No one cares any more
Not like they did before.
I refused to listen
So they gave up trying
But now I need them they’re gone
Am I breathing, am I dying?
Why didn’t I listen, why oh why?
So much regrets, in defeat I cry,
Life’s a test right so did I Fail?

Lost in chaos, corruption and sin
Satan’s laugh’s and thinks he’ll win
Unable to shed any more tears
Alone with my sins, my fears
He whispers in my ear
All day all night, my desires adhere. Supreme
Never ending falsehood
Trying to tempt me with false dreams
He always lies; always schemes
I’m drowning in misery
No hope, no respite, and no love
Now I no longer care, no longer feel
My soul is dead, and the dead can’t heal.

I showed off, vain, bragging, boasting
When I had nothing to be proud of, nothing
Sobbing until I had no energy left to scream
No one answered my pleas but Allah the Supreme
Smothered by darkness no one will hear
Drowning in sins and chocked by the fear.
Then you came to me, so beautiful I did cry
Tears streaming down my face, in relief I sigh.
Respite from the darkness after so long
Now light blazes around me so strong
So pure amongst the suffocating dark
A lifetime of sins but a single Durood left its mark (salutation/praise on last Prophet; form of worship)

Your beauty, so noble, so pure
Blazing white bright with nur
How can anything be so pure, so untainted?
My own heart a mass of sick black…
Only the faintest white dot, hidden
Amongst mountainous sins, forgiven…
Time could not diminish your excellence
Though I forgot in my insolence
Misplaced arrogance whispered to my heart
But now Allah (God) I beg that we never part
Nothing could deny you, by the Will of Allah
You found me, sent at last, Alhamdulillah (all praise belongs to God)
Even though I was so lost, misguided, astray
You’d come at last, to guide me back to the right way
It seems impossible that I’d ignored what I’d known
Not for Jannah (Heaven) but Jahannam were the seeds I’d sown.
How could I have been so foolish, so gullible?

By dunya (this world) I’d been deceived
Though knowledge of deen (religion; Islam) I’d received
Ignorance I chose and forgot what I’d learned
This misery and darkness I surely earned
Each passing day I fell deeper steeped in lies
First so popular but soon who creation despise
Heart cold stone hard, veiled with spite
Now all I craved was the Most Merciful’s respite

I’d lost it instead of arming myself
Worse that a soldier fleeing from battle
His rank instantly lowered beneath that of cattle
He knows the risks yet runs a as coward
Pays the price as he sees his comrades die…
His brothers murdered, he watches them cry.
Just like I learnt of the deen then ignored every word
It's so stupid-it’s just absurd
Like the soldier I paid the price
Worldly desire will no longer suffice
I was just waiting for death to send me off
To be flung into Hell’s fiery pit
I was a brainless fool, a sinner I admit
But you came to save me
For Ar Rahman (attribute of God; the most merciful) truly shows mercy…

But now the world holds nothing for me
Illusions shattered like a mirror forced to recognize the truth
No hold it has over my desires
All illusions removed from a glimpse of Hell’s fires
Destroyed in the blink of an eye by death...

How can I even see you? Was I not blind, lost in darkness?
You are just a speck of light surrounded
But in that speck... I see so much
Such love I yearn with longing to touch
You noble face illuminated so bright
More radiant than the moon with noble light
Your strength, I feel your beauty I see
Your courage, I sense, and your piety
Your Iman undoubtedly so strong and pure
Your pious character leaving even enemies in awe

I see how you suffered so much, yet were so kind in return
Seeking the pleasure of Allah was your only concern.
Yes! I remember now… mercy to all mankind….
Righteousness, like none other we would find
You made dua for me… we’ve never even met, but still
You longed to be with your brothers, in Jannah if is His Will
Yet… still you prayed for my forgiveness…
Is that how you reached me? Why you came to me?
Out of the depths of darkness such tranquillity?
Or is it the praise I sent so long ago…
When I had still been a practising Muslim-
The Durood Shareef I’d recited so.

I had no idea it was so powerful
So much reward gained through so few words
But then I’d known the true meaning
Behind the lines I recited
Sending Durood upon Ya Habibi.
Beloved of Allah, the Best from all Creation…
Leader of this Ummah, this Nation…

And those few words brought me out,
To the light out of the darkness…
Allah is so merciful…
So many sins I’d committed yet now…
Now I’m given the chance to repent
Before eternal subject to the torment
And I’d be a true fool if I ignored it.

Ya Ar Rahman forgive me,
I beg and beg, show me your mercy
To you do I beg and plead,
O Allah fulfil this great need
The temptations of sin overcame me,
So now bless me with sincerity
Wisdom I did not heed,
Drowned was I in deceit,
Oh forgive me for my sins so vast
Now those sins are form a distant past
Forgive me for despairing when all seemed lost
I should’ve realized what disbelief cost
I fall down in defeat now your humble slave
No longer punished in the grave
Instead paradise oven its heavenly gate
Its fragrant musk is what believers await
Death a sweet surrender, a union much sought
United with our Lord, such love for those who taught
Spreading this deen or those who fought
Jihad against their Nafs, inner desires so strong
Striving to lead man to commit wrong
Those righteous believers sighing with content
Bliss is theirs with no end, for all eternity…

Send peace and blessing on our Messenger
Allahumma Salli wa sallim wa baarik alaih.
La illaha ilalla Muhammadur Rasulullah salallahu alaihi wa sallim...

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