AVeiled
Ummati, Ummati, Ummati
 Number of posts : 289
Location : I'm Here, for now, but only yearn to be in one place; Firdows.
Religion : From the Ummah of the Beloved (s.a.w)
Registration date : 2009-08-02
 |  Subject: Heart-Broken  Thu Aug 06, 2009 6:58 pm | |
| Heart-Broken...
Sadness...
Oh I’m so lost in misery now
No longer in denial
Unable to stay away
Chained, captivated by your presence
My soul tied to yours
A bond unbreakable
Inseparable, yet separated
Tears fall
Darkness shrouds like a veil of mourning
Thick and heavy jewels trapped on soft cheeks
Leaving tear-trails of regret as paths forgotten
Wounds unhealed, forever scarred by love
Rejection
Hurt and lost, all alone
A wounded soldier, lost and all alone
A wailing child, trapped a million miles from home
Terrified
I need you, o beloved
Your warmth and comfort
The shoulder to lean on
In times of struggle a firm mountain, now mere rocks dispersed
Carried away by streams of anger, far away from your lover
I love you
My heart yearns for you
The blood in my veins pulses with anticipation
Exhilarated
Thoughts racing with your name
Chest tightening, constricted
A dull ache
A blazing pain erupting from separation
Desiring to be near, yet so distant from the truth
Betrayal flares then flickers out of existence
How can I ever hate you?
Love is stronger than time or place
No words or pain can overcome this emotion
Blazing like a furnace of passion through my soul
Overwhelming
Shooting like an arrow when I answer the fatal call
Your voice but a whisper
Hoarse, yet so familiar
Faint, your words drowned by silence
I’ve forgiven you, after so long
Too long
I’ve waited for too long, now it’s too late
Your whisper runs through my spine with a shock
Chilled to the bone
Heart cold, shivering with your words
“I’m sorry... I’m dying. I love you...”
Divorced,
Finally reunited with a wraith
Beaten by his touch, bruised to this day
The scars had healed, but the heart refused to accept his repentance
Now I thought to forgive with love, and I lose him once more
Unbearable pain overthrows
I rush to him, sobbing with remorse
Hesitating, unable to touch him
A smile of sadness upon his lips
Lying on his death bed, surrounded by foreign machines
His life hanging on the line
His weak head lifts up, struggling
His hand gently strokes the mark where he hit
Griping my trembling fist over my heart
Murmuring, barely audible over the hiss of the hospital;
“Forgive me, oh zawjah, my wife...
My hurt to you caused us to separate
But my love still holds
I caused you pain and nurtured hatred in your heart
Now my time is up and I must leave on a journey of death
I do not know, and fear the state I must return to my Lord
Do not share my mistakes, oh my beloved
For I do not wish upon your fair heart the wrath of Allah
Or the burning flames of His Fire
Where darkness gathers in a pit of fury
And the sinners must burn therein, forever or till the Merciful decrees
Seek forgiveness, oh mother of our child
Seek His help and be happy, find solace in prayer
On my death bed I have glimpsed the truth, led astray for so long
The Signs have been so clear, yet I’ve been oblivious
A fool, no more
These are my final words, O zawjah
My heart has become heavy with negligence, empty of dhikr
My tongue has become dry
My eyes a witness to so much evil
My limbs, as you know, as I regret
Prone to evil and violence, a witness against me
All I can hope is these words by His Will reach your heart so pure
So you may enter His Garden, His Paradise of delights
No matter if I suffer; I must endure a just punishment for my crimes
Perhaps the Most Merciful might forgive me, so vast is His treasure
I hold to that hope, and that our child will be blessed with Baraakah,
Innocent...
Last breath escapes my lips, I love you, and seek forgiveness O Allah
La illah illallahu muhammadur RusoolAllah sallallahu Alaihi wasallim...”
With a gasp he fell back dead, tears pouring from my gaze
Kneeling, falling into prostration before the Allmighty
“Thank you O Allah for your mercy
Forgive me, for none can forgive sin except you
I attest to your Oneness, and beg for guidance
Guide my child to Your Path of Light and Love
For surely, truly, I love you...”
As the Messenger (s.a.w) narrated,
"(O! Muslims) Do not hate each other,
Do not envy one another,
And do not be hostile to one another;
Rather be brothers (as) servants of Allah...
A Muslim is not allowed to desert his brother (Muslim) for more than three days."
Heed this message Ya Ukhti, O my sister!
Do not desert each other, O my brothers!
If you cannot find it in your hearts to forgive,
Why should the Almighty forgive you on that Day of Reckoning?
Forgive and forget, and spread love monsgt one another...
Truly, O Allah, I love you...
My heart was shattered into fragments
Broken
Your Light has healed it, divine mercy
Love
I love you Oh Allah (s.w.t)
I long to be near... | |
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